Almost a year.

I turn 31 in 11 days! I can't say that I'm excited at all. I don't have any plans, and my best friend lives hours away. I am going to try to make the best of it. Maybe I will make some cupcakes and the kids can do the decorating. I know that it will be fine. I just wanted more because it was not a happy birthday last year.

This year has been an interesting one. I have spent most of this year watching my little girl grow. I have been trying to grow myself, in a soul expanding kind of way. I have been struggling lately with self worth. I feel like I am lacking in a few areas of my life and my self esteem is being affected. I just need to find that thing that makes me feel better about myself.

I have had no love life what so ever. That has taken its toll on me. I feel unattractive and lonely. I think I have been single for way to long and its turning me into a loner. I can't even imagine sharing my bed with someone or my remote. How will I ever share my life with someone?

I do know that good things are coming. New changes that are exciting, are about to happen. I hope by Christmas to be in a new place. I'm just crossing my fingers that I can find a place that I like and that fits all the guidelines that it needs to. Change is good.