I often find myself thinking about things, and goals in steps. I know what I want, just not the order I want it. I find this list growing larger and larger every now and then. I just don't know how I am going to do it all. I can count a few things off the list, which is nice.I know I can not expect to do things on my own, completely. If I ask for help I am not admitting defeat.
I seem to be struggling with self confidence lately. I know in my head that I am an awesome person but I linger on what people's impressions of me are. I don't like rejection (I mean who does?) I don't really like being disliked either. I sometimes feel that who I am on the outside is not who I am on the inside. I love the inside me much more. I have days that I am ok with the outside. I guess I figured that 30's were all about knowing who you are much more. I know a lot of people have confidence issues. I just truly want to believe it's what is on the inside that counts.
If anything I want my 30's to be about going for what I want. I don't want to be afraid. I want to learn from every fall and relish in my courage to attempt things scary and new.
I do feel like I have already learned some great lessons while being 30. It may not come with a precise age but I hold these lessons close. I know that the power of prayer is strong, and my spirituality is growing into something wonderful for myself. I have also learned that you can not force someone to be in your life, they have to want it. That last lesson is the one I am struggling with the most. I just feel like there is something I can do to show this person they should be around. Nope, they have to want it.
I seem to be struggling with self confidence lately. I know in my head that I am an awesome person but I linger on what people's impressions of me are. I don't like rejection (I mean who does?) I don't really like being disliked either. I sometimes feel that who I am on the outside is not who I am on the inside. I love the inside me much more. I have days that I am ok with the outside. I guess I figured that 30's were all about knowing who you are much more. I know a lot of people have confidence issues. I just truly want to believe it's what is on the inside that counts.
If anything I want my 30's to be about going for what I want. I don't want to be afraid. I want to learn from every fall and relish in my courage to attempt things scary and new.
I do feel like I have already learned some great lessons while being 30. It may not come with a precise age but I hold these lessons close. I know that the power of prayer is strong, and my spirituality is growing into something wonderful for myself. I have also learned that you can not force someone to be in your life, they have to want it. That last lesson is the one I am struggling with the most. I just feel like there is something I can do to show this person they should be around. Nope, they have to want it.
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